Through the Glass Wall

Through the glass wall, he stared at me,

Trying to look into my soul, trying to see.

But all that he could find was broken shards,

Of glasses that surrounded me.

He knocked on the wall, shouting my name,

But little did he knew, nothing was ever going to be same.

His eyes were filled with fear,

And I really wished to disappear.

My eyes were empty, my heart a void,

I tried to smile at him, tried to be a stoic.

It was all a waste of time, who was I lying to?

He knew me better than anybody I knew.

I could see pain in his eyes that he hid so well,

Trying to get me out of my shell.

I didn't want to, I wanted to die,

I was so tired of these traps and lies.

I didn't recognize myself, my soul was scarred,

Even though it seemed easy, it was so hard.

I couldn't bring myself to stand up,

My legs felt like jelly, my body numb.

He knocked harder on the wall,

But I didn't move, making him fall.

His eyes were filled with panic, his eyes clouded,

He was scared for me, but who wasn't?

It wasn't his fault, he deserved someone better,

Someone who wasn't so weak, someone who wasn't shattered.

I thought I could be whole again with him by my side,

But maybe there are some scars, we can never hide.

I wanted to scream for help, but no sound came out,

Maybe I was already dead? Then was there any reason to shout?

All I knew was that I was trapped,

In a maze that had never been mapped.

I wish there was some way out of this place,

Someplace where I could smile and feel safe.

But that seemed impossible as I looked at his bruised form,

And his eyes that stared at me from the other side of the glass wall.